Sigh

Letting go

Sometimes we must let go of something. Sometimes this something feels essential. I can only hope for anyone that goes through this...including myself, that the man behind the curtain has a replacement in mind and not just another lesson in loss and grieving.

Hope was fired from my work today. She has over the last year become my confidant and close friend. I honestly don't know how to face tomorrow. She calls me her office husband. I don't know that anyone knows me better. Weird as that may seem to say I'm pretty sure it's true. There is nothing romantic in the slightest, just a mutual caring and respect the breadth and depth of which I have not found before in anyone. She has a way of listening and responding giving me what I need to keep going without pandering. She has succeeded where family, friends and my priest have failed.

Now I know we can stay in touch...likely will. This is a chunk of something that I feel very unwilling to let go of. I'm whining I suppose. But also I hope that this entry will alert the cosmos of a good soul.

gonna miss ya