far

how to keep the loneliness away

need to keep the sadness at bay

prevent this chipping, chiseling, carving away

of the self I halfway like...into a self I hardly know.

watching them two by two walking to their cars smiling
or whole families laughing with the rest of the day to look forward to.

and me, watching her walk away. always leaving...for a while I stay.

then to this over sized house I race. never dreamt it another lonely place.
yet I can still manage a smile as I envision her face.