fear

If you love something (someone)...sometimes you have to let it (them) go. I've heard this said. They say if (they) love you (they) will return to you. Perhaps this is the mindset for turning a grown offspring loose in the world. I doubt I'll ever know that feeling and I don't know if that deepens or lessons my sadness. The degree of change being insignificant.

I have to let someone go. I have to give them their freedom. Why don't I love them enough? How do you fight the fear that says you will loose them? You will loose that which is good about yourself that they bring out in you. You will never find someone who looks at you that way again, that makes you feel relevant, special, important.

know that I am trying...know that I care...know that I mean well


silent scream