six double U

Seeing without looking. Self conscious purposefully not looking. I noticeably try not to notice you noticing me.

I wonder if you can hear my voice? Do you like it? Are you embarrassed? Ridiculous broad spectrum thoughts...Pondering

Have I spoken to enough people yet? Can I go talk with you now? Is it blatantly obvious? It must be!! It feels blatant. I should just carry a sign.

I read the emails, text's and chats....over and over. Just to ease the feeling of missing you. How desperately idiotic is that?

I know that it can not be...know the right thing to do and yet I do not do it. Foolish moron! I should just break my own heart instead of waiting for you to do it.

Been in this neighborhood before. Not down this street though. It's different...nice...familiar...yet new and exciting.

Waiting, watching, wondering, waisting, weathering and wanting

She

Her entire face smiles. At once mischievous and sad. I can not look at her without smiling...and weeping.

Her voice breaks the silence gently. Sound rippling through the void from her lips to my ears. The melody reminds of a brightly lit kitchen. Smelling fresh and clean and new.

She is real. I've breathed in her scent, slowly, carefully...trembling with it's effects. The subtlety of her perfume mixed with her natural scents could conquer armies.

Memorizing her face for later...each time we are together I commit another detail to memory. Perfecting her image in my minds eye. I can see her whenever and wherever. She is everywhere, yet seldom "here".

She is real. I've kissed her lips. Silky, soft, desirable...moist, full, willing, wonderful. Lustful, alive, hungry and barely controlled I smile.

To meet her gaze is dangerous. I could get lost in those eyes. Carma, radiance, warmth. The eyes say, hold me, keep me, know me...

She IS