Heavy

Mistakes weigh heavy
pieces continue to break away and wither
losses add up against insignificant wins
regrets and remorse burden
the weight of the cross leaves impressions
imprints of the hard wood grain don't completely fade

Lightness and beauty recede
left with ugliness, money and greed
pushing away and leaving the fold
no place for the loner
no longer belong, fit in, enjoy

Sleep rarely stays long
angst and bitterness reside
unwanted guests accentuate loneliness
days become weeks and months

Smiles are rare and hurt...fake
not bothering to pretend...slipping
flooded and drowning the black dog draws down
teeth embedded - skin compromised
fighting free no option