cornered

Not sure why but I have the last 6 to 9 months anyway, felt like I had the market cornered on sadness. I thought at least I'm best at something. Today as I pulled into the church parking lot (10 minutes late) I notice someone bent almost half over. After parking and walking toward the door I recognize a man I admire very much. He's a mans man. As far as I ever thought he has everything I lack and then some. Always seems happy, smiling, glad to see you and the slightest hint of male cockiness.

Today here he is openly weeping into a tissue. I mean completely, uncontrollably, letting it all out. Now I've done this, more times than I'd like to admit and I didn't have the good sense to go outside. I thought to myself if our roles were reversed. Would I want him to walk by and pretend he didn't see me, or come over hug me and say, "I love you?" In truth as embarrassing as it would be I choose the latter. Yet what I did was the former. Why did I do that? Am I gutless? Uncaring? Maybe I don't have enough strength left to share any out.

Please know my friend...I do love you. This world is too cold and this life is too short to let someone you know and care about suffer alone.

God give me the strength to never let this opportunity pass again.