Joy

Completely cloudless deep blue sky. Somewhere between 70 and 80 degrees. I can recall moments on a day like that where everything melts away. No care, hope, expectation, dream, desire...nothing exists but me and the heat of the sun.

I think that is what God's love must be like. The washing over of pure joy. Those moments are too few and far between. You can't always re-create them. You must be open to them and allow them to occur. Savoring every drop of liquid happiness that you can.

Last night produced one such moment for me. I was open to sharing a nice time with two wonderful people...what I received was a gift beyond measure. Something you can't merely say "thank you" for. Sharing time with someone dear to us is what life is all about.

Random chaos or predestination. Two opposite ends of the cosmic spectrum. I choose to hope the reality is somewhere between. It is so human and failing to continuously ask, "why?". Did you plan this for "us" God? Are you testing us? Or is this as random as spinning a coin and waiting to see which side faces up?

I can not conceive of the possibility of feeling confident about an answer for any of the above questions. What I do know is that last night...was "sunshine" quality joy. Experienced while in the presence of one of God's creatures. Whom I deeply care about and yes even love.

If this isn't what life is about...then please leave me blissfully ignorant.