behind

one behind, I'm always one behind.
Can't move around, why can't I find?
the will, desire , drive or guts
to live forward and give her my love.

so long now I've thought of the cruelty I find...
So many of us are always one behind.
I'm as bad as the rest. Maybe even worse.
no fun anymore ...fighting this curse..

one behind...I'm one behind
she was so sweet, so loving, so kind
yet I could not find...
the strength to come out from that place or that time
to live forward, to move away from the one left behind.

The pattern so clear
even to a fool like me
now she's the one behind...how can I be free?
How do you move along leaving the rest behind?
Is love a real word? Does it even mean anything?
Should it be stricken from my vocabulary.

So never again
Will I hurt those so dear
So true so beautiful and find
God forgive me...he does
and I just don't get why.